For those of you pumping, have you ever asked your significant other to insert the infusion set?
It only hurts me about 1/3 of the time, and even then usually only for a few seconds. But despite dealing with needles for 19 years, I can’t get over feeling jumpy when it’s time to put in a new set.
Tonight, as I sat with my Inset cocked back and ready to go, pressed firmly against my thigh….I froze. I didn’t want to insert it. I looked at my boyfriend and said “I don’t want to do it. You should do it.” Now, I was just talking. I didn’t really need him to reach over and do it. I guess it was just a way to show that I may have had this for 19 years, but I’m by no means so comfortable with it that I can stab myself and not blink twice.
His response? A simple “I don’t want to hurt you.”
Those six words are very powerful for a diabetic to hear. Not because I think he wouldn’t do it. I think that if I really needed him to help me, he’d do it in a heartbeat.
But they’re important because they acknowledge that yes…diabetes is a PAINFUL disease. There are parts of it that, frankly, just freaking hurt.
And I think that’s an extremely important realization many need to understand about diabetes.
I don’t just have to ‘watch what I eat’. I have stabbed myself with needles thousands upon thousands of times, and I will have to continue to do so until either a)I die or b)a cure is found.